Protect Your Peace
Often reflection happens at times you least expect it. You’ve been putting one foot in front of the other for some time, you forget how to really live. There is a wave of emotion that comes from those who rear their head, you’ve crossed their mind after a mini crisis and they’re unhappy in their own lives so they are back seeking something with a little more sunshine and a lot less rain?
Recently, I’ve been trying to put off giving much thought or attention to my life over the last couple of years or so, things have changed drastically. There’s no shame in the past but I’ve also been thinking about the future. The year of 2020 has been a little unfamiliar for us all but a time that should have really brought us all closer. Taking away some complications, life’s a little less busy yet I’m a little wary.
Personally, I find that sometimes things are better left unsaid. Protecting my peace and looking after my heart is sometimes the best way to be. Having your say is not always right, especially when you’ve had the same problems with the same person or people for a number of years. It gets to a point where you wish they’d just leave you be to make your own way, yet this is easier said than done.
When I feel like I’m not moving forward I ask myself to, ‘think back to where you were a year ago’ and measure your progress from there. The ‘2020 Vision’ has dramatically changed for many and it’s something our whole generation is having to adapt to and work around daily! Christ, we can’t even walk into a bar without pre-booking three weeks in advance never mind catching a deadly virus or worrying about your boyfriend texting an ex…
Things feel flipped on their head a little, working from home has become the new norm, the familiarity in wearing a mask has become a little too ‘normal’, friends are on redundancy pay outs and I’m not quite sure when I’ll sing in a venue next or dance at a festival but we keep moving, forward really is the only way to go.
It’s times like this I feel people should be trying to build their relationships up, try looking after each other and check in with each other instead of being half ‘in’ and I’ve learned that the hard way. Sometimes it stings and other times it’s the realisation that really life isn’t going to be right with the wrong people around so the further away they are from you and the less contact you have the better things will be and that gives me peace of mind.
We’ve come a long way in the last five months but we still have far to go. Although I am looking on the bright side, the money I’ve saved from holidays this year has been invested into a fantastic staple wardrobe, so roll on A/W 2020! I’ll close in saying, protect your peace, look after your loved ones, friends, family and colleagues. Oh, and don’t make time for anyone who’s even a little unsure of a future with you in it, pandemic or no pandemic.
